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| Its been 3 months since last I've written....
Life is getting on good... I work at a bingo place on saturdays.. And I've got an amazing job at the rocky mountain chocolate factory... its awesome... I luv my boss and most of my co-workers... and my sis works there 2....
I've started saving money for school, so that's good 2... hopefully by this time next year ill be in school and living in or around burbank... and ill probably still work @ the chocolate factory and the bingo place on the weekends...
My family is doing pretty good.. My bro is getting so big, he'll be 9 months on feb. 4th... he talks sooo much now and he rolls over and scoots around, I want him 2 start crawling soon though... crystals doing good, she's gettin kinda mean.. My sis is goin 2 graduate high school this year and was accepted into 2 colleges so far... my sis w/ the baby has a good job, a new car, and a bf she's always with... my youngest sis just got 2 tattoo kits, so she's going 2 start doing tattoos, she already gave me one and my neighbor one...
I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping and staying asleep... so I started pretty much living on otc sleeping pills, nyquil, tylenol cold night time cool mint, and jeiger.... its been ok...
My head has been killing me non stop since new years eve... I've had light sensitivity, noise sensitivity, throbbing, its like a nagging constant pain... oh yeah and another one of my wisdom teeth are growing in... gay...
So, tuesday heath ledger died... I am still totally devastated... he was amazing.. Talented.. Sexy... what happened...??.... I seriously still can't believe it.. I'm shocked...
And brad renfro died last week.. What's up?.. They both "apparently" od'd.... who's next? Celebrities die in threes, whose going to be next????
Well anywayz... today was my day off, spent it just lounging around.. Watching tv shows and reading my true crimes book...
Spent 5 and a half hours chatting with michelle on yahoo messenger... I love our yahoo chats... I miss em...
So, its like 3 am on thursday morning and I have 2 work in 12 hours so I'm goin 2 sleep.. Gonna go take a shit load of nyquil....
Bree... | | |
| I know its been a while since I've written (2 months) but things have been hectic...
Since the last time I wrote, I picked gina up from texas, moved 2 riverside county, started working w/ my mom, have started talking to amazing old friends, and have never felt more alone...
Lately, things have just felt like they've been going downhill, like nothing is ever going 2 work out, like life just isn't worth it anymore.
Sometimes I just feel, like my life is so pointless, that nothing matters. And that sometimes life just isn't worth it anymore. Its not worth it 2 keep going alone, and miserable..
I mean, I'd never do anything drastic or fucked up. I'd never be selfish like that.. I don't think I could ever get 2 that lowest of low points.
I just get soo depressed sometimes, so sad. Sometimes I just want to cry, or scream, or throw things..
I miss the old days, where things were just the way they were and that's how they would always be.
I miss being a kid and when you didn't have all this responsibility.
There is one thing in this entire world that I want 2 do, and I can't do it. Life kept getting in the way. Sometimes I wish everything could have been different.
All I want is to go back to school, and I can't. I don't have good credit so I can't get a loan. I can't get a good paying job, so I can't save money.
Is that so bad? Is it so much to ask that I can go to school? Am I a horrible person 4 that? 4 knowing wut I want, wut will make me happy?
I feel alone. Like none of this even matters.
Anywayz, I'm going to go...
Its midnight. And I still have halloween decorations 2 fix..
Bree... | | |
| More lengthy entry later... all the juicy stuff later.. Kinda tired, but I wanted 2 post this cuz I'm bored, bree.....
10 random facts about me
10. Im always wearing socks
9. I alphabetized my cds
8. I have 6 tattoos
7. I'm a sociopath.
6. I have 3 younger sisters and a younger brother
5. I can't live without caffeine
4. I always add a triple espresso shot 2 my starbucks drinks.
3. I love black and pink clothes
2. My fave color is purple
1. I'm going 2 b a makeup artist
9 ways to win my heart
9. Open doors 4 me
8. Side with me in arguments, even if your right
7. Hold my hands, every chance u get
6. Kiss me on the nape of my neck
5. Whisper random things 2 me
4. Play with my hair
3. Sing me cheesy love songs
2. Watch chick flicks with me even if u hate them
1. Always hug me before u leave.
8 things I carry / wear everyday
8. Wallet
7. Box cutter
6. My "crow" pen
5. Cover girl mega slicks lip gloss
4. Hand sanitizer
3. Hawaiian ginger body spray
2. My sidekick 3
1. My atm card
7 things that annoy me
7. People that chew with their mouth open
6. People that contradict me
5. Liars
4. People that talk with food in their mouth
3. When people talk when I'm watching tv or a movie
2. people who always ask if I'm ok
1. Not always being ok
6 things on my mind
6. Where I'm moving
5. Gina being a bitch
4. Backstabbing friends
3. Untrustworthy people
2. The future
1. Life
5 things I want to do before I die
5. Get married
4. Tour with warped tour
3. Work on @ least one movie or tv show as a makeup artist
2. Own a bar either in vegas, new york, la, or jersey
1. Brag about how far I've gotten
4 things I'm afraid of
4. Dying
3. Being alone
2. Bugs and spiders
1. Being unhappy for the rest of my life
3 things I do everyday
3. Listen 2 music
2. Watch some tv show on dvd
1. Babysit
2 things I'm trying not to do now
2. Fall asleep
1. Think about gina and how fucked up she is
1 person I want to be with right now
1. Zachary quinto | | |
| So. Just been pondering. And thinking. And mainly packing....
So I have 4 and a half boxes packed. Hopefully I won't have 2 many more. I think gina might have more stuff then I do 2 take... but my stuff goes first if hers doesn't fit.. Sorry...
So. Dunno if I'm gonna like livin with this joaquin guy. But oh well... I gotta decide how I want 2 decorate my room... I know one wall or part of the wall or maybe the ceiling will have cds on it...
And I think nenes gonna draw a cheshire cat. And this motion city soundtrack design. And I dunno wut colors 2 use. I'm thinking 4 colors. Maybe a purple a pink a black or dark grey and maybe a blue. So both of the designs (the mcs and cheshire designs) will go together.
But then I dunno how I wanna paint it maybe in like a diagonal design. I dunno I want it kinda trippy. Ill figure it out..
And other then thinking about designs I gotta go wired money 2morrow 2 gina 4 first months rent. Then I gotta get registration on my car. And new tires a front end alignment and terminals 4 my battery then it should b cool 2 go...
So.. Just wanted 2 update here. Take a lil time off from packing and stressing 2 write...
Ill update in a couple days...
Bree
-topsy-kretts- | | |
| So if u can't tell by the title of this post. I'm anxiously awaiting an arrival........
MY ARRIVAL IN AUSTIN ON AUGUST 17TH........!!!!!!!!!!!
I am sooo excited. Seriously. Ok so here's the dillio. Me my best friend for over 15 years gina, her fiance and their friend joaqin are all going 2 b living in this 2 story 3 bedroom 2.5 bathroom 1,472 sq ft house in austin and its all ours......
All for only $1200 a month 4 rent and about 3 or 400 4 bills.... that's sooo freakin cheap compared 2 out here in cali. Ginas whore of a mom is paying $1600 a month 4 rent in a house that's 2 bedrooms one bath and totally tiny...
Anywayz... road trips comin up. Me my sis nene and my friend michelle will embark on our trip on august 15th and will hopefully b in austin by august 17th. Its a 20 hour drive and austin is exactly 1,388 miles from baldwin park. So I don't think we will drive the 20 hours straight so I'm guessing we will b there by the 17th.
I am soooo fuckin excited. 4 the first time in my life I am going 2 b on my own. Free. With my best friend in a new place. I am finally going 2 b able 2 live my own life.
But there are some pit falls in this. I'm going 2 miss my niece and brother soooo much. They r going 2 b soooo huge by the next time I see them. I won't see em 4 about 4 and a half month. Not til xmas.
Dominic will b huge. And they will most definitely b moved into he new house. Brichelle will b a senior in high school. And who knows wut brit and nene will b doin..
Ill get homesick a lot. Believe me. But it will b pretty easy cuz gina will b there. We've known each other since we were in 2nd grade.
My family had been making bets on how long ill last out there. I told my mom that just because of all the shit iis talking I will stay out there even if I'm sooo completely miserable and can't stand it. Just to prove them all wrong. Just 2 prove that I can make it on my own and don't need them...
Anywayz not much else goin on here. Gotta go get car insurance and registration b4 we leave and 4 new tires 4 my car. Maybe a small cooler 2 to keep drinks and snacks in on the drive.
I'm gonna go to triple a to get some maps and stuff 4 the trip. They apparently help u out 4 free. So that's cool. And I still have 2 finish my scrapbooks and finish packing. And then pack the rest of ginas stuff.. I need 2 figure out everything I'm taking and make it fit in my car. Which might prove a little difficult. But I'm only going 2 take the necessities.
Ginas sisters r comin over on saturday 2 go through the stuff I don't want anymore. And maybe help me pack a little. And well prolly watch pirates 3 cuz they haven't seen it yet. I'm gonna miss them almost as much as I miss my sisters.
Seriously I'm looking 4ward 2 the holidays. Halloween thanksgiving xmas. Mainly halloween and xmas though. We r going 2 decorate like crazy it'll b awesome..
So here's a random list of things I'm going 2 buy in austin:
laptop
video camera
digital camera
car
video ipod
(Everything but the car I can buy @ radio shack and get a 50% discount cuz jose works there)
DVDS I need 2 buy in Austin:
The hills
Laguna beach
The simple life
Avenged sevenfold
Mc lars
And some random things:
Paris hiltons book
Nicole richies book
Mc lars cds
Dresden dolls cds
And there's a shit load more. But I'm doin an interview right now. So I will update more later when I get a chance..
Bree
Aka Topsy Kretts | | |
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